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Heyyyyyyyyyy, it had been such a long time since last year that I didn't write anything. I have been so busy with work, life and emotions. This year is the biggest upset year of my life in UK. I was talked to myself. What if I can change a situation. Would I feel differently. What if I can't. Would I still feel different. What is wrong with you. Why do you do this or that. Everywhere I see or hear lately is mental health. Trust me, if the person is mental, is me lol. But I just want to make you think again about someone might need help. It could be a laugh and joke face you will see his/ her everyday at work. A smile face that talk to you everyday. A lonely person that everyone know but never ask about their life or a person that you never ever thought is him/ her. I talk about this as my recently experience of losing the best friend of mine.
How come is this mental health so big in pass few year. How can the world we are living with high technology, everything fast, everything convenient or communication across the world in one click are so good. Really good. Absolutely brilliant. But, we are not actually talk face to face. I mean to a stranger. Random chat about their day. Not much I do believe. Or even if you talk to your friends. Are they really a friend that you think you could trust to say anything and you conversations not spread around. Or you can fully trust them, but you don't trust yourself that you will believe that they are really your friend that you can say anything to them. Arghhhhhh too many rules or things that you have to think before you speak. Then, you go on social media and see so many of your friends on a picture look really really happy. Ohhhh, they are going on holiday again. Aww, they are such a lovely couple. Oh look at that he/she got a really cute pet. Wow, he/she got a new car, dress, life or whatever they got. You press like in every single one of them. WHY!??! Does it make you feel better that you got stuck in a room and watching an absolutely brainless TV show and you watching you phone more that you watching TV. AND a lot of TV program this day don't even have a talent. All they got to be is good looking and be a slag or a d**k (oops apologies for my language) or when you watching news, the leader of this or that making peace. But really, it's just a game for them. So, who's care about the rest of the world as long as they still suck everything out of you until you dead....... and it will go on and on and on and on. Until YOU are the person that can stop it!
Woah, you definitely say, "You don't know what it like until you have it". I am accepted that. Yes, I don't know what it like. But I know that how can you stop yourself to go to deep into your own thought and that when it too last to heal and you end up in a mental hospital. I know, everything surrounding us this day make you feel sick. I feel the same too. But I don't give a s**t as long as I made my mind still happy and stay happy. I don't really watching TV. I listen to the radio, when a favourite song come on. I just sit a really listen to a lyric. It is really beautiful. Some of a song even make me cry because I feel really connected 😂 Wake up in the morning and looking at yourself in a mirror and feel really thankful that you still alive. You are a good person. It is doesn't matter what people said about you. But if you are an a**hole. That's you choice. Of course everyone talking about you! Yes you, most of political! Smile to everyone that meet your eyes. I smile to everybody. I don't care if they don't smile back to me. At least I smile. If you can't find anyone to go out with. Just go on you own, it not that bad. You can do anything without wait, picky, argue, share or on your phone when you eat. Just yourself and look around what you fancy to do today. Go with no plan! My Husband hate it when we go out and ask me "what are we doing?" I always said "I don't know". It really drive him up the wall Hahahahaa! Why you need a plan when it just you! If you miss a train so what, while you wait for the next one. You can sit and watch people walk pass by. It is really entertaining, trust me. I saw a lot of people felt, tip over (if it badly I always help) or argue couple in the public. That is the most hilarious and you see on social media about lovely couple. See in real life is more likely to press thump up lol. Don't trap yourself in your own thought. It is the most dangerous thing that you couldn't control when it too late.
When social media or advertiser show you the happiest life of someone. But did you know, before the moment of true appeared to social. What they have to been through to make that moment happen on screen. How hard it was. How long it took. How many people got involved. How organised they done. How the plan and how etc..... Of course people like the another person to see the side of their happy life. Everyone does! Some people do that, it is they choice for their own happiness. It isn't the only way to make you happy thought. You can find your own way to make yourself happy. Like, walking in a nature, travelling, painting, gardening, dancing on your own, learning a new skill, exercising or whatever you think that you want to do for ages. Do it now, what are you waiting for?
You can be happy in a little thing. Listen to positive speech. It will helping you over come your evil thought. I know what it feel like when you have to stay on your own and sinking in your own thought. It is mental! Don't let anything surround you lead you to become the way you don't want to be. Be the person that YOU is the leader of you mine! YOU can do it! I am proud to say that I am a volunteer for animal. I didn't know that I allergic to cat 5 years ago. But I still volunteer to stroll a cat. Cos it make me happy. Even if I have to sneeze a million time. Now, I only have a few sneeze and a bit of red eyes. I'm sure my body getting stronger over time that I constantly surround by a cat. See! I don't care. All I do care is, if I feel happy to do it. I just do. If it not bother anyone. I just do. If it make me think positive about my life. I definitely do. Whatever it make you feel happy even a little bit. Please do. It won't harm you. If you need help. Just go to find someone to help you. You not alone. Talk to someone, they are there to help you. Don't let your thought be the boss. You the one that control it! If you not helping yourself first, nobody could help you that. Then you might end up with your life......
I do believe everything happen for a reason and the reason is you start it and don't control it and end it the way you let it to control instead. Remember, nobody perfect. We only human. We have feeling. We have heart. We have brain. So, it is depends on how do we use it. No offence to any religion. Trying to read about the way of Buddhist. It is the simplest way to make yourself happy enough to be alive.
This is just a way of me to helping you feeling at least a bit happier to yourself. I know it is really hard to do when you feel really down. Also, it is only you that can make yourself feeling better in mindfulness. If your mind happy. Everyday, everything and everywhere you go or do will be happy too 💕💕💕💕
Sorry for no pictures because I'm sure you can imagine what a happiness look like 🧐🤩